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So much to Understand
Sai Baba's darshan is like being at a BIG BAND concert...after spending two weeks at a solo recital. You queue up for 3 hours, women and men separate. They sit you in horizontal lines, and the person in front gets to choose a number, a lottery....this decides your fate...how close you sit to G-d. Both darshans I was number 9....apparently Sai's number, but not in front...more like a side view. Inside it is the size of a football pitch...the colours are pastels and gold with jewels...hundreds not thousands, sit cross legged for 2 hours before he arrives and then almost 2 hrs while he is inside the 'bajan' hall...by the time you get up, you look like you have rickets...I was so uncomfortable, even the meditation couldn't relieve me from my lower back pain. I don't know what I thought...it is something you can't explain....men all in white and the women in opulent saris....and there are as many westerners as Indians....and so many Russians, I felt like I was on a bus in London returning from Moscow!! I could hardly concentrate, I was so busy looking at everything...everyone seemed to know all the words of the songs...I joined in when I heard OM..everyone fan's themselves with plastic ping pong bats....well that's what they look like. When Sai enters it is like the stampede of the crazed women...all pushing and shoving to get God light ...I wasn't sure about this..Kiara and I went to eat in Western kitchen with some Italians...I commented that there seemed to be loads of lapsed Catholics here...where were the Jews? A gorgeous vivacious Argentinian lady...said "My dear no need to look far, there are lots of us Cohens inside."
She had been living in California, and came to the Ashram and now lives here permanently. She has a son and daughter but added "They are not mine, I just gave birth to them...we let go of attatchment" I am still struggling with that concept...I know when I get it my worries and anxieties are over! Kiara and I went back home and talked about her revelation re Sai...it was facinating, she is quite amazing for her 34 years and has written a book called the Divine Family....she calls me sister, I really like her. I have had the best massage for $10 this morning....every knot has been untied....then dare I say it, I had a gobi manchurian for lunch...and my stomach is still keeping it together. I have had a coffee with Walter and Jean...and Walter and I may go to Kerala and Ammachie's ashram together....we will meet after Darshan and talk more about it. Have to quickly go home now and change, because my trousers are 3/4 length and you can't show a bit of leg.....Sai a ram....keep you posted x
She had been living in California, and came to the Ashram and now lives here permanently. She has a son and daughter but added "They are not mine, I just gave birth to them...we let go of attatchment" I am still struggling with that concept...I know when I get it my worries and anxieties are over! Kiara and I went back home and talked about her revelation re Sai...it was facinating, she is quite amazing for her 34 years and has written a book called the Divine Family....she calls me sister, I really like her. I have had the best massage for $10 this morning....every knot has been untied....then dare I say it, I had a gobi manchurian for lunch...and my stomach is still keeping it together. I have had a coffee with Walter and Jean...and Walter and I may go to Kerala and Ammachie's ashram together....we will meet after Darshan and talk more about it. Have to quickly go home now and change, because my trousers are 3/4 length and you can't show a bit of leg.....Sai a ram....keep you posted x
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