3 days left before I go

Actually I haven't left yet so I cram in as much of London!  Can't wait to venture into oblivion yet I am determined to be exhausted when I get on that plane. I've packed my bags at least 3 times...keep on looking at my new case which is the right size for 23kilos and it looks like a bag that is going for the weekend to Manchester....how can I possibly be taking such a small bag for 4 months....clothes for Mandanapalle, which must be conservative. A spiritual place where covered arms are required, and lots of whites to help reach enlightenment quicker....then clothes for the 3 more weeks where I don't know where I am going. Will it be yoga in Mysore, temples in Tamil Nadu or bikinis in Kerala.... My last 3 days....down Portobello with Alfi, a 'Friday Night dinner' at Eli and Tali....check out the new shopping centre in Shepherds Bush with Mary Louise...the theatre with the Zippers..Sunday Organic market....friends and family popping in for tea....re pack....check the list....movie with Bettina....breakfast with Richard....photostat the passport....check the list...repack....tired yet! I've seen the Rothko, can I make the Francis Bacon exhibition.....I still want to see the Saatchi in Kings Road.....will they all still be here when I come back, will I come back , when will I be back.....I have rented my house out to Dustin and Jevin....Stephenson Street goes from home to homo....autistic to artistic....my whole life is stuffed into drawers....under the bed....the boys have more product than I have had my entire life and Jevin's blusher is so classy than my palette with the plastic missing and no mirror! My inner voice says LET GO ...one more last game of scrabble on Face Book with Shelley..got to finish the game of wordscraper with Tessa...how will I cope with 40000 emails....if Mandanapalle has no internet cafe and no ATM machine.....my inner voice says LET GO and go to bed! One more cigarette...I won't be able to smoke with all the enlightened beings....they say if you smoke you create a smoke screen around you and it takes longer to reach the light....I know switch to Marlboro lights, that will do it. Now who you kidding.....go to bed! Good night and god bless x